So, yes. We are continuing on with the trying for a baby, and, may I say, we're having a pretty good time trying. Sorry, I know that was probably too much sharing, but it's true.
It's like our little secret since we're not really telling people in "real life". We have this little code we talk in when we're talking about it and there are other people around. We daydream about finding out we're pregnant, about being pregnant, and about having a little one around. We're spending more time together (which I didn't think was physically possible, but apparently, it is), and just having a lot of fun.
It's like the romance that had slid off of our radars a little is back on in full force.
That being said, I'm afraid of two things: not being able to get pregnant, and actually getting pregnant. Again with the TMI, but I had slightly abnormal pap recently that indicated there's either slight problem or possibly no problem at all. It has me freaked out that it's never going to happen, which is I understand is a little premature, but it's there. I'm sure I'm not the only one that freaks out about infertility, and I'm sure all my online reading isn't helping that anxiety.
But then again, I'm sure that when/if it actually does happen, I'm going to have a "what the hell did I do???" moment. Which I'm sure is pretty normal too.
I think we're making the right decision for us, though. Especially if I go by the signals Aaron is sending me. Last night he rolled over as we were falling asleep, kissed me on the forehead, and said, "I'm so in love with you. I think we should try for a baby."
He's nothing if not the class clown.
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I remember well the same fears. Enjoy the trying, no matter what happens. Enjoy the romance.
And keep on blogging. every time I go to one of my reads, I find out she is pregnant. Must be something in cyberspace.
that's so sweet he said that. awww.
Aww..I love the code talk! :) I want a husband and babies!
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