Two days past my due date and there are no signs of impending labor. Aaron was hoping not to have to go into work today, but off he went at the regular time this morning. He kept saying, "You should go into labor now." If only, my dear. If only.
I have an appointment at 11:30 today for a non-stress test and an ultrasound to check fluid levels around the baby. I'm excited to get to see and hear her, but I'd rather see and hear her on the outside. Would really, really rather that was the case. As hard as I'm trying to stay patient, it's nearly impossible. I'm not even that uncomfortable, I mean, there's a little discomfort, but I'm still moving around pretty well and able to do quite a bit. I just want her to get here, and it's so hard to wait.
I'm also really nervous about being induced, if that's what has to happen. I really want to go into labor on my own. I don't want to have to make the decision about being induced or having a c-section (different doctors are advocating for different options).
I also really want her to come soon, because every day she's late is a day of maternity leave to spend with her lost. I really wanted the full twelve weeks, but as of today it's twelve weeks minus a day.
I know I'm whining a lot. I'm feeling a little sorry for myself, I think. The other problem with her not being here is that I'm totally ready for her, work's done, preparations are in place, and the house is fairly spotless, so I really don't have anything to do to kill time. Plus, it's hard to find anything that keeps my interest, when the only thing I'm interested in is meeting my little girl.
4 comments:
Isn't it amazing how our bodies and minds work together? At the beginning of pregnancy, you are so focused on keeping that baby inside you and you are really scared of the labor process. At least I was. And then as the third trimester comes to a close, and it becomes safe for the baby to come, you are so ready for it to happen you'll do anything to make it happen. I ate spicy food for three straight days and had sex the night before. I can't say that any of those things worked or if it was just coincidence.
I know you are worried about how things go. But you have the right attitude. You know how you'd like it to happen but you accept that the only real issue is a healthy mom and a healthy baby at the end.
Do you by chance have a birthing ball to sit on? They say that sitting on that helps somewhat.
Hang in! I'm thinking of you!
I'm sending labor thoughts your way!! Hopefully she will come soon. And you're not being whiny - it's natural to be READY and ANXIOUS and want to spend every minute of your maternity leave with her!
I think you've earned the right to feel a little sorry for yourself. I'm sending lots of labor thoughts your way. She really will be here soon!!
All we can do now is send you labor-ious vibes!! Hope she comes soon.
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